I have elected to have some surgery. I am having it done on December 7th.
I am having gastric bypass surgery. I am announing it in my blog as it is sort of a coming out month. It has been a long time coming and I am very ready. This has been a personal struggle for many, many, many years. I was able to get into a program that has a great reputation and is right here in my backyard. I have a very good friend who works in the program as a psychologist. She has been most helpful and well.....a huge support to me.
I will be in the hospital for 4 days recovering. My ex has agreed to take our four children while I am there. I will have to rely upon them in some capacity as I recover at home for a time. I told my kids about the surgery yesterday. They seemed Ok with it. My one daugther was a little bummed as she always has a big Christmas party with her girlfriends....so we agreed to go for a party on New Years Eve. I will be back in shape by then I hope. She liked the idea and seemed fine with things. My middle daughter cried as she knows of many parents who have struggled with cancer....so that was her first thought, that mommy had a bad cancer.
Thursday I have some pre-operative testing for the entire day. Hopefully I will fly thru it with flying colors.
I am very excited and yet very nervous- I know things are meant to be and it will all work out. Unfortunantly my medical insurance is terrible and they will not cover it. I have saved enough money in a special savings account for such a time as this. So I will have to pay for it on my own. As I explained to my mother---- I can pay for this or pre-pay a funeral. I think I would rather do the surgery.
I am excited and yet a little nervous. Risk comes with surgery. I understand the huge change I am about to take.
My plans right now are to finish all Christmas shopping, wrap it and make some freezer meals. Also to see where I may get a little help from some friends. One has offered to drive for dance classes for my one daughter. Plus with the school break there is less pressure for homework and doing so much. Sports are over and so are major projects. Their dad will be seeing them as well, that helps. I have not told him anything. I just said I have a surgery. Part of me got hurt as he never even asked if I was OK. He basically said he could watch the kids but it had to work around his schedule of work ( he owns his own business) and holiday activities. I will be honest and say it sure felt uncomfortable-but that is how divorce works. I guess we move on and begin lives apart and seperate.....treating things as business transactions. So goes life. I am past the hurt and looking forward to a whole new lease on life.
I am excited to look better an feel good health wise. Thankfully I have never become diabetic or had sleep problems or bad knees or a bad back. I feel that was all waiting for me just around the bend. I really hope I learn and grow thru this whole new way of living. It is finally about time.
One of my mottos the last two or so years has been that "God has a plan and a purpose for me." Basically that God is not done with me and he has good things waiting for me. He has things orchestrated to make good experiences come out of bad ones. That thru it all I will grow no matter what. I will learn from it all and become the person He desires me to be. That excites me and propels me to look ahead with unshakable confidence.
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