Today I got an unexpected check in the mail from some business proceeds. This was part of the divorce agreement. I basically never know when it will come if ever-- and if it does--- I never know how much. I was very proud of myself. My first reaction was....."YES....I can put it right in my money market account" Maybe years ago before the divorce I might of thought...YES....lets go on a trip or lets remodel.....yes in years past that was my spoiled wayward thinking.

I am proud of myself---now I say....save for a rainy awful day.....put it away ---RIGHT away and watch it grow......
I also thought....I can't wait to march in that bank with this check and place it in my account. It is so refreshing to be free---free indeed. To make my own choices regarding the money. This is something I HAVE NEVER DONE PRE-DIVORCE. I can actually tell the money what to do as Dave Ramsey says. I am free to make choices...GOOD choices To make choices that are hopefully not too sloppy or regretful....but good choices with my money. My ex would bet the house on "sure things" and many "you can't go wrongs".....we ended up losing our shirts 97.99% of the time. I can spend it if I wish but I can wait and ponder it and decide with some thought involved. If there is one GOOD thing that has occured out of the tragedy of my divorce it was that I regained some sense of ownership with choices.....good ones some days and other days maybe not so good.

I will walk in that bank tomorrow not all smug but humbled and in thankfullness..... knowing that I have come so far in a new direction. That many choices abound and the choices are mine. I am humbled and grateful for the opportunities I have to make choices. Choices with my children, my money, my faith and my own life.